What are you wearing right now? bossini long sleeve shirt, victoria secret pink track pants.
What’s the last thing you read/are currently reading? the oydssey by homer.
Do you nap a lot? every day, almost.
Who was the last person you hugged? my friend
What’s your current obsession/addiction? heels and candy bars.
What’s for dinner? don’t know.
What was the last thing you bought? smarties!
What are you listening to right now? taeyang - wedding dress.
If you could have any super power, what would it be? to disappear.
What is your favorite weather, and why? ha, my mom just described this to me yesterday. okay, so my perfect weather is 18~22C, a little bit of sun, not too bright, not too many clouds, no rain.
What time do you usually get up? 7am on weekdays, 9am on weekends.
What is your most challenging goal right now? school goals.
Say something to the person who tagged you: i really can’t remember
If you could have a house- totally paid for, fully furnished- anywhere in the world, where would you want it to be? Asia, anywhere in asia is fine.
Favorite vacation spot? cali <3
What is your favorite item of clothing? leggings :)
Favorite pair of shoes you keep going back to over and over, even though your closet is overflowing with a zillion others? uggs or converse all stars.
Name one thing you cannot live without: keys! haha.
What time is bed time? this past week was 11pm but it’ll probably go back to my 1~3am from now on.
If you could wake up anywhere tomorrow morning, where would it be? in his arms.
I'm not as happy as I thought I would be. End of story.
Lying hurts, especially when you lie to yourself. I’ve lied to myself so many times. “You’re fat. If you lost weight, you’d be happy. He loves you. He’d never hurt you. Your life depends on what other people think about you. Life is all about money. Possessions own you, not the other way around. Become perfect, it’s why you live.”
Well, I have everything I want right now yet I’m probably the saddest person alive right now. I always want more… always more. I know that many of my friends have told me everyday that they love me and that I am beautiful; the envy of many. Yet, I have never believed this. I look in the mirror and cringe. For real. I put on masks of make-up and then wash it all off again because I realized I can’t hide true ugliness. Maybe I was right to feel like that at the time.
Well?
I’m not fat, I’m not stupid, and I don’t need money to be happy. I can live my life, just being myself. I don’t need a man to make me happy, even if I feel like I can’t live without him at the moment. I don’t need the compliments of acquaintances to feel beautiful. I may not be beautiful but sometimes it’s okay to feel like I am. I love myself. I will no longer hurt myself. I will not hide my wrists anymore. Scars are scars, scars are beautiful. And beauty is meant to be shown to the world.
I’ve always had a dream. I’d meet a boy who was my enemy in high school, then suddenly in university, sides turned and we became lovers. He’d take me to dates in amusement parks and he’d run to my house in the middle of the night if I needed him. He would order couple items online and buy couple rings for our 1000 days. We’d wear matching clothes all the time. We’d move to Asia, buy a penthouse and then travel the world. We’d go to Europe, Oceania and Asia. We’d take pictures of ourselves everywhere. He’d ask me to marry him in front of a crowd. I would cry, then say yes. He’d hold my hand everywhere and tell everyone, “she’s MY girlfriend.”
My dream failed me.
“goodbye dark dark world.. i won’t miss you. thanks for all the misery. please just let me go quietly.. i am tired.. i am so tired of living like this. i’m so empty and sick. mentally and physically. i’ve finally come to recognize my eating disorder. im sorry. im sorry mom, sorry dad.. i love you both xoxo. “
i wish i had enough guts..
I have a new goal in life
to marry jay chou :) puahaha.
no.. i’m kidding.
i hate school. :( i hate biology labs. i hate chemistry tests. i hate english summatives. i hate commentaries. i hate studying for biology tests. i hate studying for business. i hate practicing for piano exams. i’m so tired of everything… i wish i could just sleep forever :(
/rant.
p.s. i wasn’t kidding. he’s a sexy man with a sexy voice. ;D
"Don’t be pushed by your problems. Be led by your dreams."
unknown
"If we meet in dreams,
if I can find you again
will you come to me?"
Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson
Appearance:
I am 5’4 or shorter.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different colour.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I’ve had braces.
I wear glasses.
I’d get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.
Family/Home Life:
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I’ve lost a child.
Embarrassment:
I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve snorted while laughing.
I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
I’ve glued my hand to something.
I’ve laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I’ve had my pants rip in public.
Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I’ve had stitches.
I’ve broken a bone.
I’ve had my tonsils removed.
I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.
I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
I’ve had surgery.
I’ve had chicken pox.
Traveling:
I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.
I’ve been to Canada.
I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
I’ve been to Japan.
I’ve Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
I’ve been to Spain.
I’ve been to Africa.
I’ve been to France.
Experiences:
I’ve been lost in my city.
I’ve seen a shooting star.
I’ve wished on a shooting star.
I’ve seen a meteor shower.
I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I’ve been to a casino.
I’ve been skydiving.
I’ve gone skinny dipping.
I’ve played spin the bottle.
I’ve crashed a car.
I’ve been skiing.
I’ve been in a play.
I’ve met someone in person from the internet.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I’ve seen the Northern Lights.
I’ve sat on a roof top at night.
I’ve played chicken.
I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.
I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I’ve eaten Sushi.
I’ve been snowboarding.
Relationships:
I’m single.
I’m in a relationship.
I’m available.
I’m engaged.
I’m married.
I’ve gone on a blind date.
I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I’ve been divorced.
I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve kept something from a past relationship.
Sexuality:
I’ve had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I’ve kissed a member of the same gender.
I’ve had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I’ve been kissed in the rain.
I’ve had sex outdoors.
I’ve hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.
Honesty/Crime:
I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve ran a red light.
I’ve been suspended from school.
I’ve witnessed a crime.
I’ve been in a fist fight.
I’ve been arrested.
I’ve shoplifted.
Drugs/Alcohol:
I’ve consumed alcohol.
I’ve smoked a cigarette.
I(‘ve) smoke(d) pot.
I regularly drink.
I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.
I’ve done hard drugs.
I’ve been addicted to an illegal drug
